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Name: Vincent
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| wow, its been a while. ive been meaning to come on and post stuff, but i havent been able to (or rather, ive been too lazy to) organize my thoughts. the last post was kinda meaningless, just a bit of self-entertainment really, especially with the whole survey part, so its gone. id like to keep up that whole pensive mood thats been around here lately, but the last entry didnt quite belong, so now-- yet another installation of ramblings that make sense to myself.
heres the most pressing issue at the moment. well, its not really an issue, and i dont really think pressing is a good word to describe it, but a lack of sophisticated vocabulary stops me there. anyway, lately ive been finding myself a bit dissociated with some normal human emotions (again, i dont think thats a good way to word it). lets see.. you know how a lot of people say they miss someone? maybe its common courtesy to tell someone you miss them, to let them know that theyre important to you for whatever reason. but i genuinely dont "understand" the "missing" feeling. sure, there are people id like to see, but i dont "miss" them. i dont go around thinking, man i wish they were there right now. so for the same reason, i dont tell people i miss them, coz i just dont. i dont miss places either. when i was in andover, i was sure that id miss it when i graduated because i was having so much fun there. but now that im out of high school, i dont "miss" it. i definitely had a much better time there than i am now, but i still cant bring myself to say that i miss it because the truth is i dont. i dont miss home when im at school, and i dont miss school when im home. id just really wanna know why. and then the whole social thing isnt really cutting it for me at the moment. maybe its the fact that im just not comfortable with my surroundings yet, and i havent been for the last 3 months, that has prevented me from really reaching out and socializing with people. sometimes i find myself saying stuff that has me wonder why i said it afterwards, or doing stuff that even confuses myself afterwards. i find myself increasingly becoming the odd one out or the awkward person. and talking about something supposedly makes yourself feel better because youre letting it out, but the way i see it, by talking about it, youre only thinking more about it, and so youre actually making yourself feel worse. at this point, im so confused at myself that nothing really makes sense anymore.
and now comes the bc situation update, a feature thats been ever-present so far. having gotten back last night without classes today, its already a radical change from break. nearly 4 weeks at home relaxed me a lot and got me away from a place i felt uncomfortable in, to say the least, but it also got me thinking how much less motivated ive gotten since starting at bc. i do believe the whole lazy thing is playing a big part in this, but a part of me cant help thinking that its not only laziness thats affecting my motivation. i started out wanting to do well in everything and taking part in everything, but after discovering that i still didnt feel at home here no matter how i tried, i dimmed down significantly and now im just living each day with the hope that itll pass and that break will come sooner-- possibly one of the worst ways to pass college, if not the worst. i suppose my "negative" feelings for this place will only inspire me to work harder in transfer applications, but this one thought slipped into my mind when i was talking with wesley on the plane back to the states-- what if i dont get accepted to any school? i dont know how to answer that question. would i be prepared to live through another 3 years (or 2, if i go abroad for a year) of bc feeling like this? most probably not. but if, god forbid, that happens, what am i gonna do? at this point, im pretty certain id rather drop out than continue, but what would my parents think? they know that im considering transferring, but they dont know anything about my current "situation." im ashamed to tell them about it too, because then the conclusion would be that theyre wasting their money, and i dont want them to feel that. i just dont know anymore.
it seems rather absurd that im already thinking of summer plans (well, not really, considering most summer job applications start around now). but more so that im already thinking of the summer, period. i guess this somehow ties in with the whole bc situation-- with a spring break too short to go home in, the next big vacation is the summer. ive already asked my parents if i can take driving lessons, and so far theyve given the approval, though things like this seem to end up falling through. the widely circulated sentiment is that this is the "last" summer to have fun in, because subsequent summers will involve internships and stuff before joining the workforce fulltime (ive wanted to phrase it like this for a long time hahah). so what exactly do i want to do? i know i want to be in hongkong because i really wanna take driving lessons on the side. maybe a trip abroad? but thatll last what probably a maximum of 2 weeks, and im not prepared to waste away the rest of break (because god knows im just gonna be playing fm everyday with an hr of music and maybe some soccer tied in, nothing else). im just keeping my options open right now. my parents are already discouraging me from a third and last summer with summerbridge, and i agree with their stance too-- its time to look for something else to do. but i somehow feel that i have unfinished business with sb, and that if i do end up doing it for the last time, ill have the most fun out of 3 summers. in any case, im just looking forward to the summer already because i wanna get out of here. sigh. i sincerely hope this feeling changes.
on the other hand, the past 3 and some weeks at home were probably the best break ive ever had. maybe it was because id been looking forward to getting out of bc for so long. but i think it was mainly coz i felt like i belonged at home. the past breaks ive had really only felt like breaks between school.. they werent quite the ideal length for me to feel really integrated at home. and i did summerbridge for the past 2 summers, which frankly occupied a crapload of my time-- weekday dinners out were out of the question, and sometimes weekends too. this break, however, i got to do whatever i want (though i was pretty lazy), hung out with my cousins a lot, went out a lot for good food, chilled with people i wanted to chill with, and even got in touch with an old childish side of me by playing some old computer games i found, installed and discovered to still be amazing. it was by no means an exciting or even fulfilling break if you compare it to people who held jobs or went to do volunteer work. but i still went to macau for the first time in what seemed like eternity and visited casinos for the first time ever, picking up a new interest in blackjack along the way. i went to the "world carnival" thing for the first time since it started taking place in tamar bay (not exactly sure of the name hahah). by those standards it definitely wasnt top quality, but the fact that i hadnt been to amusement parks and stuff for so long made the experience worthwhile. i became familiar again with the freefall feeling that comes with those water rides and with the "heart falling out" sensation that comes with rollercoasters, and feared dropping out of a ride while being swung upside down for the first time. but of course the most important aspect of break was good food. it was a good time. i went through pictures my cousin gave me before i left, definitely satisfied with christmas break 2006-2007. it was probably the strongest ive ever felt about not wanting to leave.
lol this was probably the most time ive taken to write an entry. im surprised i stayed with it for that long. in the meantime, enjoy your semester/term/whatever (assuming you read through the entire thing..). as for me, ill be thinking of the summer and trying to escape.
room, 0044
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| going along with my recent tendency to base each entry on a "theme," ive decided to use football manager for this one. maybe as a preparation for starting the fm 2007 demo very soon. i dont know.
when i played the game recently, i found this. needless to say, thats the players current situation. i took a screenshot of it because it resembles in so many ways what im going through right now. so.. it all boils down to..
im looking into the possibility of a transfer.
its interesting because the more i think about it, the more comparisons i can draw with the situation with soccer players. some want to stay on with their clubs for certain reasons, and others might want to eventually move on. right now, i wont say that im definitely gonna transfer, because whether or not ill get in (and whether or not ill actually accept the offer even though i get in) still remains a big issue at this point. ive been thinking about this a lot though, and ive been evaluating my options a lot. yes, id love to stay, but im keeping my options open for now.
so lets consider the possibility of staying:
bc has given me so many opportunities to do well. right now im in a number of programs and groups thatre setting me up really well for the future, and theyve basically set firm foundations for me here. i also feel that (not to be obnoxious) i can do well here and maybe stand out in the future because of my past experiences, and definitely after going through andover. right now, i see myself as a bigger fish in a smaller pond. if i move to a bigger/better school (which would be the reason id apply for transfer), then i might become a smaller fish in a bigger pond, which might not do as well for me in the future. one of the main points that people stressed on when steven gerrard and thierry henry were considering their future was that they wouldnt be as idolized with bigger clubs, and wouldnt grab the attention and be the star as much. though im miles away from being idolized, grabbing attention, and being the star, in a way i feel this is sort of a similar situation.
ive become familiar to boston. after 3 years at andover and a couple months here at bc, i can ride on the t without worrying how to get to my destination. i can fall asleep on the train and not wake up panicking because i over slept or anything. i can tell people how to get to places, and i can recommend restaurants in chinatown. its like ive been here for a while. at this point, ive only really lived in 2 cities in my life, and itd be really weird if i moved to a college outside of boston. not to mention the fact that id have to go through the entire adjusting process as well. for lack of a better example, robbie savage allegedly chose to move to blackburn after birmingham because it was closer to his home. a place where you feel at a home is definitely an important factor.
the pressure that comes with moving to a new surrounding and the fact that everyone there would be settled in is worth thinking about too. certainly, if i end up moving to a "better" school, more will be expected because idve reached that caliber to get into that school, and id need to step up a gear to be able to stand firm in my new environment at least. of course, to do well there would be a much harder task. and if i transfer and continue as a sophomore, everyone there whollve been through a year would already have groups of friends and social circles. id be more like the new kid who doesnt really know anyone and anything. but im also against reapplying as a freshman, because i wouldnt like to think of myself as wasting this year. plus, i like being the young one. this definitely is one of the main things ive been thinking about. ashley cole recently stated that he needs around a season to find his feet at chelsea because of the new surroundings and all the pressure and expectations that came with his move from arsenal. if a worldclass leftback needs the time, im pretty sure that i will too.
now lets explore the advantages of transferring (that is, if i eventually end up getting in):
the step up in quality excites me as a new challenge. people generally regard bc as a pretty good school, but the fact that people always get bc and bu mixed up, and the fact that no one in hongkong knows what bc even is, really makes it clear that its not quite at the top level yet. we might belong in the new ivys, but being classified as the same group as davidson, reed (both of which ive never heard of before) and vanderbilt (just to piss wynne off) isnt that comforting. i wanna be able to prove to myself that i can cut it at a higher level after proving to myself that i can do well at bc. its something i wanna try. i hear people about this-- in terms of college, getting in is the hard part, and its about the same inside. i wanna test that theory. if ive been able to do well at bc without putting in that much effort (im lazy), then i think i can do equally as well in a "better" school. michael owen rejected a new contract with liverpool apparently because he wanted to move to real madrid where he could play with the worlds best against the worlds best in a top league. its just something that might prove too tempting to resist.
i wanna prove to myself that i can actually get into school. it still bites me that bc was the only school that i got in out of 16, and i was pretty pissed off/upset/basically every negative emotion when i got rejections from everywhere else. im pretty sure that i couldve gotten into somewhere else, which wouldve given me at least another option to choose from. but im here at bc not because it was anywhere near my top choice (in fact, it was my safety school), but because i had to take up the option. (edit: vk, i know that i failed precalc (NOT algebra). i know i didnt do well at first at andover. i guess i worded it wrong. what i meant is that having come through those failures, i know that i can do much better. and having gone through 3 years of andover, im now pretty clear about my own strengths, weaknesses and abilities. the reason im not failing out of bc right now is because i know clearly what i should be doing and how i should be doing it. i can measure my own abilities, and having done that, im pretty sure that i couldve gotten into a better school if id done to the best of my abilities. it sucks coz i failed to do that in andover, and those first terms really screwed me over, but in hindsight, i know i couldve done better. thats why i say that i couldve been able to get into a better school-- not because i shouldve regardless of my crap first grades, but because i know i couldve done much better. and judging from what i think of my level/abilities now, im pretty sure that i can get into a better school.) by (hopefully) transferring into a school i decently (or maybe even really) wanted to go to, id be able to look back later on and say, i managed to get into that school. its a big deal for me. and for my parents too. and for whoever asks me for what school i go to. maybe i put too much emphasis on the name, but if i wanna carve out a living in asia, the names what its all about. while at leeds, eric cantona was offered to liverpool, but gerard houllier decided to reject him. what happens later? he signs for manutd, and becomes one of the best foreign players in the english game. its stuff like that i aspire to.
as much as im used to boston, a change of scenery might be refreshing. though i cant say where i might end up, or even if i get the chance to end up anywhere different, it might be good to explore other areas of the states. what about new york city, which is so hyped up? or somewhere smaller? or just a completely different environment? i havent really looked into schools to apply to yet, but thats definitely a factor im taking into consideration. yes, i know this conflicts what i said above about wanting to stay in boston coz im used to it, but im just evaluating options here. andrei shevchenko left milan for chelsea because he/his wife wanted to experience life in "glamorous" london (and because of money.. but thats not the point here).
anyway, the point is that im seriously looking into the possibility of a transfer. thats not to say, though, that im not happy at bc. as the picture says, id love to stay. itd be a fine option with me. its just.. im thinking about.
if anyone has any thoughts on this, please let me know. its kinda important to me right now.
room, 2217
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| its about time for another update. now its more like instalments rather than a regular blog. hahah.
when i post this entry onto my xanga, the previously last entry will be pushed onto the next page. its interesting. that entry was about summerbridge. its only been 5 posts since the summer, but considering how far apart i update this thing, its also been a considerable amount of time. so im deciding to keep the summerbridge "feel" by adopting a summerbridge theme to this entry.
see, the fundamentals of sb, besides the 3 main aims, were the hand signals. all these hand signals the students learned at the beginning of their sb lives.. we become too accustomed to using (some of) them by the heart and the end of the summer. students chatting in class? just do the focus sign, and theyll keep quiet. ill be the first to admit that ive never really used many of the signs except for english all the time, respect, focus, and support. its always weird if you suddenly get the urge to do the support sign when you return to "normal" "everyday" life. and the urge to knock on the table when someone says something you agree to during a discussion group class.
english all the time-- so theres no denying that this one is spot on. the amount of english i speak here is overpowering the amount of chinese by way too much. im lucky if i even get to speak any chinese in a day. literally, i only get to speak chinese when my parents call. my chinese will only deteriorate if it keeps going on like this, and i think i do the majority of thinking in english now. its scary. but hey, at least im remaining true to my sb principles.
respect-- i dont think i can comment on the overall level of respect at bc, because there was a recent racist hate crime that happened on campus a couple of days ago. pretty scary and depressing, if you really think about it. but i feel like im getting the personal respect i like. and i feel like i give enough respect to other people. people listen to what i have to say during class discussions and all that, so im alright at least on an academic level.
focus-- hmm.. heres the hard part. i dont think ive ever been so distracted and procrastination-prone before. i set aside goals and things to accomplish (mostly work to finish) during weekends, but in the end i always leave everything till the end. why? i get distracted really easily, even when theres nothing really to be distracted by. it seems that i relied too much on my "uber concentration mode" that i have to really really force it to turn on late at night when im facing a paper among other homework. its definitely something i need to fix, and fast. i stayed up until 4am on saturday and sunday having done absolutely nothing for the entire day.
support-- heres also something im struggling a bit with. i guess its still early in the school year, and i dont really party or drink all that much, so i cant bond with people over drinking games and whatnot (even if it might be a bit awkward..), so i dont really have a close group of friends yet. i get along well with quite a few people, and we can hang out and stuff, but there just hasnt been anyone i can completely open up to yet. my main sources of support here at bc are jason and amanda, who, as i mentioned in my previous entry, have been a great help to my first couple of weeks here, but i still miss having yoon and wesley around to just talk to about anything.
participation-- definitely not socially. as i said, im not exactly what youd call a party animal. in fact, im far from that. but in terms of academics and extracurriculars, i think im living up to the sb standard. im taking part in classroom discussions much more actively than i did in andover, and by that i mean MUCH more actively. and it feels good to be contributing and sharing my opinions. the extracurriculars have settled down a bit, so im not that busy with them anymore, but its still giving me stuff to do. i recently got accepted into a program called flip (freshman leadership initiative program) for our school newspaper, which pairs a freshman with a mentor in the editorial board to get the whole idea of how the newspaper works and stuff. im looking forward to this. and im the only asian among 21 freshman in this program. how weird. never have i been so outnumbered before.
bravery-- i forget if the signal is for bravery or for courage. but i feel that right now im still lacking in this department. bc is still relatively new to me, and even though i know my way around pretty well, it just doesnt feel as comfortable as andover did. i hope time will change all this. i hoped that i would come into college to have a fresh start, after everything i went through at andover, but im not living up to my own expectations just yet. im still finding it kinda awkward and difficult to be the first one to introduce myself to other people, so i really hope thatll change soon/eventually.
teamwork-- i know that most of the time i prefer working alone than with other people. i guess its coz i like things to be done my own way, and sometimes this is a hindrance if i need to work in a group, or if im assigned to work in a group. even in sports games, i think im becoming more of an individual player now. in soccer, i dont play it short anymore. instead, i try to go for the killer through ball or the shot on goal. in ultimate, i dont like playing the zigzag-move upfield tactic. instead, i wait for people to make a run deep and go for the long-range bomb. what does this say about my personality?
motivation-- hmm. this is the thing im lacking the most in right now. as i put it the other day when i was talking to wesley.. if i somehow like a girl here, i think id be too lazy to make the effort to go after her. similarly, i dont have any other motivation to work for school except to do well and get good grades. i laze around a lot, and i think im becoming stupider by the minute, but at the same time i feel good doing nothing. why is this? have i really become lazy and unmotivated, or am i just doing this for the hell of it? and if im just doing this for the hell of it, why am i doing it? i dont have an answer to this, and i really wanna find out. i wish i could just have a psychologist look at me and tell me everything thats going on inside me and analyze me. i wanna know the reason why im so unmotivated and everything else.
those are all the hand signals i can think of. if im missing anything (to think ive been with summerbridge for 2 years already), please let me know, so i can include it.
on another summerbridge note, its so hard to keep in touch with anyone from sb. maybe i didnt enjoy as strong a relationship with my students as i did last year, but i dont really talk to anyone from sb anymore. and its not that i dont try. i dont know. its confusing and sometimes frustrating.
ok, that was really long. hahah. i really tend to ramble. i think i have add. i cant wait for thanksgiving.
room, 2125
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| its been a while since my last update.
since the last time, ive gotten into the band yellowcard. i dont know why or how i first listened to them, but right now theyre one of my favorite bands ever. theyre louder and faster than lifehouse, but its not a kind of loud rock thats really annoying and just pure screaming. the music they make is pretty good and thus catchy, and the lyrics are great as well. its given me more motivation to make some stuff when i have free time, i.e. over christmas break and summer.
since the last time, ive started taking jazz piano lessons. i got the incentive when i talked to vk about jamming and him being the sax chair in his school band. and then coincidentally, my japanese teacher is pretty famous for jazz piano, and i just approached him after class one day to ask if he taught at bc. and after that we just scheduled a first lesson, which we had this past wednesday. i have to say hes really good. he told me to first practice improvising the bass/accompaniment before i should go to improvising the melody. and while i was doing the accompaniment, he was just playing away on the other piano. and it was awesome. probably the best 1.5 hrs of music lesson ive ever had in my life.
since the last time, ive been to an event that was the best so far at bc. we had the boston pops orchestra come to bc to play during parents weekend (this weekend), and they were amazing. they played such great hits as the star wars main theme, the indiana jones theme song, circle of life, under the sea, stars and stripes forever, and a selection from chicago the musical. it was awesome because they also had the boston college chorale sing to some of these songs, including circle of life. it was a different version, this time with a straight beat and several changes that made the song more pop-ish, which sounded really good. ahh good music sends chills down my spine and brings a wide smile to my face (that was really corny). and then each seat had complementary "gourmet lunch boxes," which had honey mustard potato salad and grilled tuscany chicken among other food. and the best part was that i got in for free. tickets for the seats highest up cost $40, but my friend got complementary tickets, so we went in for free. what a night.
since the last time, ive been to a talk by lehigh biochem professor michael behe on intelligent design, the alternative to darwinism. the lecture was titled "the case against darwin." it was definitely thought-provoking, and it got me and my friend to debate about the idea of fate and chance after the lecture. ive been thinking more and more about religion and the idea of whether everythings planned out or if its up for grabs. and the more i think about it, the more firmly i stay rooted in my atheist beliefs. i refuse to believe that anything or anyone could plan out how an event will turn out or how someones life will turn out, because that means we have no control over our lives, and thats depressing. if anyone wants to talk about this, im definitely up for some discussion.
since the last time, ive started and finished the whole full metal alchemist series. its a really messed up series with ideas that really even challenged humanity, but the whole plot was amazing. the ideas that the creator came up with were also really creative. after the first few episodes i was like yo this is so messed up, but then i kept going and i just got more and more into it. so that occupied my free time for a few days, but definitely time well spent.
since the last time, ive been getting involved on campus. its good because the running around to go to meetings really takes up time, and if im bored/not entirely comfortable with the school yet, it gives me stuff to do and occupies my time so i wont be sitting in my room thinking that this school sucks. i got positions in both the copy section and the business section of the yearbook, so im looking forward to that. im gonna start working for the newspaper once i finish some midterms and get some of the work over with, because i eventually wanna get like a job as an editor for both publications. not looking towards the editor-in-chief positions or anything high like that, because im not that enthusiastic about the whole thing. i just like writing in general. i also went to the study abroad fair a while ago, and that was awesome. i have a major dilemma on where i wanna go, but its still early. and im definitely looking into double majoring or minoring in international studies.
since the last time, ive been doing well academically. well there havent been many tests or any sort of assessment yet, but from the assignments ive been getting back, im encouraged by my start. its weird how ive changed completely from the middle school math and science person to the college english and history person. maybe i just got into writing and stuff. and maybe i just got good at bs-ing. but im definitely participating a lot in both english and history classes, which i could definitely not envision when i first started at andover. and ive been getting good grades in my history essays, so thats good. for the only other assessment type things aside from english and history, i did really well in my stat problem set (without the help of yoon or anyone else!). but stat test 1/midterm is coming up this wednesday, so whether or not im really doing well remains to be seen.
since the last time, ive settled in more. im grateful to have such caring and awesome mentors as jason and amanda. theyve given me an outlet to talk to whenever i dont feel particularly good, and they always check up on me and ask how im doing. it feels good to have upperclassmen making time for you just to chat and grab some food when you know that they could be doing so many other things. just yesterday i went into boston just to chill, walk around, eat good food, and stock up on asian snacks and food! with jason and one of his friends, and it was great. it didnt take long at all, and it was just good to relax away from campus and a few hours.
and now i have work waiting to be done. and yes, i tend to ramble. a lot.
room,
1226
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| its only been 3 and a half weeks since i left hongkong. it seems like it was so long ago. while life right now has slowed down a little and has been a bit easier and more comfortable, it still cant compare to andover.
today we had our freshmen convocation, with senator john mccain as our keynote speaker. he was awesome, and i really liked the speech. but i missed vk sitting beside me, cracking lame jokes or half-hearted insults in response to almost every line in the speech. our class of 2010 had more people than the entire student population at andover. kinda intimidating. i somehow landed on the topic of music with my friend in my japanese class today, and we discussed transcribing, jamming, improvisation, and perfect pitch. he doesnt play any music. i wish there was a jam room set up in the basement of my dorm complete with an electronic drumset, a keyboard and electric guitars, so i can have something to do on boring weekends. i came across the v^2 crappy productions the other night, and i couldnt stop listening to our masterpieces. they were awesome.
last week i snuck into the law library when the receptionist wasnt there (only graduate law students are allowed to go there) to study with my friend. its probably the best place in the world to study. its so quiet and calm there. but i missed andrew yoon sitting beside me, discussing with me the goings on and questioning a lot of fundamental ideas. i missed the whole-hearted discussions wed had over the years down in the yoon corner of the library. and while i was able to get much more work done in 3 hrs than i ever couldve in the andover library, its the experience and fun in the process that matters.
my roommate has an addiction for the game snood. he literally plays it 24/7 while talking online. he puts off his work until the last minute, and he almost always goes to sleep earlier than me. were getting along pretty well, and hes a cool guy. but i missed the carter house year with wesley. those were the days when i could blast canto-pop and whatever, and synchronize it with wesleys speakers. now i play my canto-pop through my sick-ass headphones, but its not the same. i missed having late night conversations that went "wesley, lets talk." "about what?" "i dont know. think of something." "i dont know either." however meaningless they were, i wish they could happen again.
japanese class is going well. im ahead of most of the class in terms of material, and its a good thing. my japanese teacher is really cool, and my classmates are actually nice people, even though most of them are upperclassmen. were doing much more intensive kanji studying here, and the more challenging coursework makes me actually look forward to class everyday. but i missed having wynne there to talk trash with, to act obnoxious and inch people with. no more "but i dont need to practice, because i know it already." today the teacher wrote two kanji on the board and told us to look up the pronunciation through the dictionary. i made a guess with my partner, and it turned out my guess was right. but wynne wasnt there for me to tease, and he wasnt there to tease me.
im consuming my stock of instant food at a decent rate. and i downloaded smallville season 5 over the summer. and ive continued my tradition of eating while watching smallville (albeit over and over again). but i missed having andrew glasrud randomly burst into the room, jumping onto my bed, and screaming "smallville." and him asking me to make some noodles for him so we could eat and watch at the same time. or that we could eat and talk about girls and other stuff. on the rare occasion that i stay up late into the night doing some reading and a paper, i find that, when i go to the bathroom to brush up, the hall is way quiet. i missed going into the bathroom knowing that glasrud was probably in his room pulling an allnighter to "get work done" but still watching monty python.
but so far, bc is turning out to be alright. im looking to participate in a number of extracurriculars, and to do stuff i never got to do at andover. just last week i ran into my sophomore friend at dinner, who was on our campus for auditions for the heightsmen, bcs only all-male acapella group. he told me to go try out, and so i went, because i didnt have much work that night. i went into it just looking for the experience of actually singing for real in front of people and to have fun, but that night i got an email telling me that i got a callback to the 2nd round of auditions, which really came as a shock to me. ive never had any experience in singing ever before, but i was 1 of the 11 to make it to the 2nd round, which made me really happy. and even though i didnt end up getting into the group after 4 hrs of 2nd auditions (only 4 actually got in), it gave me confidence and more determination to do well at this place.
until next time (i hope things willve gotten even better by then).
room, 2201
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